Adobo Criollo Sergio Antonio Ortiz Rivera

Solo el Rumor ¿Oye alguien mi canción? José Lezama Lima Yo que no he visto la cordura ni al perro siberiano pasearse con su recua entre las nieves blancas, y que tampoco aprecio el silencio invernal del crepúsculo ni el sonido de osos rebuscando entre mis víveres. Me pregunto: ¿Alguien vendrá a poner su mano por la mía sobre el picador, o su firma en el papel que reclama todo lo que me han robado en mi viaje por la vida? Yo no he visto la ternura tampoco siento excitación al observar al niño comer de las manos protegidas de su madre. Solo el rumor de lejanas ciudades donde el invierno dura más que el verano acelera el ritmo de mi sangre. Porque ese frio si es mío. Yo que no he visto nunca la cordura he jugado con el agua y la nieve, que son la misma cosa. Los he amarrado entre mis piernas como se amarra a un amante. Le he dado forma con mis manos como se le da forma al pretencioso amor. Yo que estoy harto de escuchar a los lobos y dormir bajo los sauces ya no tiemblo...

Seva City Bloody, bitter fingerprint fluttering like crazy as it runs by a melancholic echo trapped inside seashells for relief. They are misaligned birds, men in tri-color suits waiting for the foam and the quetzal. Space becomes narrower, and our city collapses. Eventually we will open fire on this cascade of sparrows hiding in the polls of the blind. Ciudad Seva Sangrienta huella de amargura aletea como loca al recorrer el eco melancólico del desahogo atrapado en las caracolas .  Son pájaros desali ñ ados, se ñ ores tri-colores esperando a la espuma y al quetzal mientras la ciudad se derrumba y el espacio se hace más angosto. Tarde o temprano abrirás fuego, del todo al todo, contra esa cascada de pajarracos que se esconden en las urnas de los ciegos . 

top Model 3 , originally uploaded by saore2010 . Ausencias         Estos códices ingenuos no so callejos abstractos, presencias que irrumpen en mi soledad para inmolarme en el papel. Ni siquiera son atavíos musicales del derrumbe de mi cuerpo.         Son ojos de agua a gatas dentro de mis poros, diseños gráficos de una muerte profunda y difícil, montañas de signos que presagian la dosis exacta de vida.  Son los latidos pacientes del origen... para convocar a la esperanza, o  al p ostrero adiós, y seguir creciendo. Absences These naïve books are not abstract streets, absences that burst into my solitude to sacrifice me on the piece of paper.  They are not the musical trappings of the collapse of my body either. Springs crawl in my pores, graphic designs of a deep and difficult death, mountains of signs foretelling the exact dose of life.  They are the patient heartbeats of our origins... to ...

Tu Piel Me urge el mar en la almohada, el zarpazo de calor, tu piel entre mis piernas.  Me urge, me urge el mar. Your Skin I stir and urge the sea upon my pillow, the lash of your skin warm between my legs.  I urge the sea,             I urge the sea to come. Ta Peau Presser la mer dans l'oreiller, le coup de griffe de la chaleur de ta peau entre mes jambes.  Presser,             presser la mer.

Héroes La piel de mis pies esta minúsculamente vacua de héroes, como cuando comienza a secarse la tinta y se arruga el papel. Heroes The skin of my feet  is minutely empty of heroes,  like when ink begins to dry  and paper crinkles.

two more veins , originally uploaded by saore2010 . two more veins The last two hours I spent in the Emergency room with a female doctor a male doctor and a social worker who were trying to convince me to go to a psychiatric ward that had both facilities, physical care and psychiatric care. These were the two most humiliating hours I have ever spent at an ER. The female doctor lied in one of her reports, and the social worker made fun of me by speaking in English and acting as if she knew she had my future in her hands and what was happening was all about revenge. She laughed through the entire interview. She was in control and she could do anything she wanted to me, even send me to another hospital, a psychiatric hospital, where no one would believe my story and where the nightmare could being all over again.

and another vein gone bad , originally uploaded by saore2010 . and another vein gone bad I have close to 60 photographs and a few videos of the entire thing. I knew something was happening, but I did not connect it to the poems I had written about the hospital, or the doctors. They are just poems, after all. I should have remembered Lorca and Miguel Hernandez.

another vein gone bad , originally uploaded by saore2010 . Like I said, this happened every 12 hours. I was alone in the hospital so they could do just about anything they wanted. Sergio

The injections the nurses gave me , originally uploaded by saore2010 . The nurses at El Hospital del Maestro decided to inject antibiotics without opening up a vein and the result was that every vein they pinched collapsed. All of them bled, none was useful more than once. Therefore, the torture was every 12 hours. Not long ago I had a heart attack. I went to that hospital and they sent me back home with the pain. The next day I went to my doctor, he gave me an electrocardiogram and it turned out that I was having a heart attack. But do you think he called an ambulance to take me to the hospital? No, I had to walk home, prepare clothing for the hospital. Carry my luggage on my own and go to the emergency room that had sent me home the day before. After all this happened I wrote two poems about my experience.  They were both published.  Apparently the doctors involved read the two poems and decided to take revenge on me for having the audacity to speek ill about a fel...

this is my cellulitis infection , originally uploaded by saore2010 . I entered the hospital with this skin infection. What happened next is a tale of torture by the very hands that were supposed to cure and save my life. I will be recounting my true story for all of you to read. Sergio

You are banned, look elsewhere to reside. I am a Jew, expect my excellence, the bleeding, the rat, the affectionate sway of the mood. The pound of flesh you pin, stab, bite, kick, spit, cut, and burn is just another pound of Jew flesh. Use your German dictionaries and appease the differences in language, *como la madre que te pario, o el chulo-e-puta que vigilaba tu  puerca pari-a . Words, languages, flesh, insinuations of whatsoever was appreciated are now gone. Where do you practice your beauty, on the third floor of a teacher’s hospital? In a Nazi ER corridor? ~~~~~~~~~~ *like the whore that bore you, or the pimp that watches your pregnant sow

Farewells In the past I hid you in the silence of an opinion Not two days ago I found you in the bustle of a verdict today I part in the chill of a false impression Despedidas Hace años te escondí en el silencio de una opinión No hace dos días te encontré en el bullicio de un veredicto Me despido de ti con el hielo de una mala impresión

Dear God I feel you in the leanest spaces of a line of skin that recalls the humidity of a love harvest. Let us play lick the snakes, dissect  respiration.  Two exhausted centuries fray in their daily routines.  Street urchins lose their fear and spit on you.   Rezo Se ñ or, te espero en los espacios más resecos de una línea de piel que aun recuerda la humedad de cultivos amorosos. Se ñ or, Vamos a jugar a lamer las serpientes, a disecar la respiración.  Se ñ or, El cansancio de dos siglos se deshila en soledades cotidianas.   Hasta los erizos de calle te pierden el miedo y te escupen. Caro Dio Ti sento negli spazi più magre di una linea di pelle che ricorda l'umidità di un raccolto amore. Giochiamo leccare i serpenti, Sezionare la respirazione.  Due secoli esaurito mischia nella loro routine quotidiana.  ragazzi di strada perdere la loro paura e sputare su voi.